Good News & Letting Go

These past days have been particularly trying as I've been sick for two weeks straight and have ended up in the hospital twice. Most days there seems to be no end in sight. Now, truth be told, if one has to be sick and unable to get out of bed for that long, its nice when its for a good reason, which in my case it is - we're expecting a baby in November! Somehow though, my mind has managed to disconnect that fact as the reason for being so ill, which has made it much more difficult to keep things in perspective. My mom constantly reminds me "When you hold that baby in your arms you won't remember any of this" but my brain has a hard time focusing in on what that moment will be like and is far more apt at this point to bemoan how long its been since I was well enough to clean my bathrooms. And so I'm learning to let go. To let go of all the things I can't be doing right now, to let go of the fear that the morning sickness will continue to be this intense for all of my first trimester, to let go of simple things like not being able to have dinner cooked for my husband when he comes home.