Tuning In

"I feel lost in the world today, disconnected, moorless. Who am I? Where am I going in life? Is any of this stuff I spend my time on really important? What is the big picture of my life right now? I ache for spring and warmth. Life seems possible then. The cold is wearing on me and I feel trapped. Trapped by the cold, trapped by not knowing what to make of my life right now. Sunshine helps and my studio feels cozy, fresh and inviting. A haven for my soul. I long to be able to go out on a walk but I wonder at the wisdom of that when its in the single digits and I'm already getting a sore throat. I sense a need for beauty and creativity but can I really leave my to do lists and abandon my spirit to that? I can find beauty and grace in the laundry but can I find it in my chemistry assignments? Something says "You don't dare put off that which was to be done today" (chemistry, math, bio, house cleaning, laundry, finishing gifts, errands) and yet Someone else whispers "Mindfulness, Intentionality, Nurturing, Grace, Awareness."