A Curious Amalgam

"We feel most helpless when we've made choices by default..." ~Richard Bach

Michael and I have been living an interesting series of days here recently. A strange mix of intentionality and default, almost a subconscious experiment you could say. The past week has seen everything from schedules to free-form days "catering to the heart", early, focused mornings to late, relaxed ones.

And what lessons have come from this hodge-podge of days?

• That not every day needs to look the same. While a strict scheduling of my time may prove helpful one day, there are other days that staying home all day and even missing Bible study is healthier for my heart and for the life of our little family.
• The only way to know the difference between such things is to tune in. To be in touch with our needs and with what God is impressing on our hearts for that day and sometimes for each moment.
• I have also learned how easy it is for me to get side tracked with a different plan even once I have tuned in to what I need. Case in point: a yoga class that didn't finish til 9, then the drive home from the city. We were all set to quickly shower and settle in for the evening...until I saw that a movie had arrived in the mail. Three hours later...you get the picture ;)
• And yet even this brought another lesson the next morning as I proceeded to berate myself for making the decision to stay up. Michael gently reminded me that perhaps it would be better to see it as a learning opportunity than to continue to beat myself up for something that couldn't be changed.

So while our goal is to live this life of ours with more intentionality and less default, we are still remaining open to learn from this curious amalgam of the two.