A New Season

Thank you all so much for your prayers and thoughts! It has been a very hard week with many difficult things but I have had a lot of peace these last few days inspite of it all.


These days seem to be characterized by...

• anesthetic peace - the pain of betrayal is still there, but it is covered in peace
• hunkering down for the long haul - having been looking forward to moving in a month, it has been a disappointment to have to wait until March, especially with family life these days.
• nurturing vs. pain management - things like taking my breakfast to the lake with my journal for some time away with God instead of sleeping to forget the pain

The hardest thing to get used to has been how different life will be without this close friend who has decided that her life would be better off without me in it. And yet, in an odd way, it has also been freeing. I feel liberated to be my authentic self without the constant antagonizing judgment that has been present in this relationship for several months.

In many ways I feel that I am entering a new season of life. Old things put to rest, new beginnings, exciting things to look forward to in the next few months. I don't know all that this next season will entail, but I will walk into it confidently, knowing that whatever happens, "good" or "bad", it will all be exactly as God intended it to be, and so it will be good.